Sometimes I just wonder...

Sometimes Life can be full of surprises, It can be full of joy and laughter or it can also be full with sadness and sorrows.

Like what my dad always says, look on the both side of it. Is it good being like this? Or is it good being that? Nowadays, I find that I am always short on fuse. The simple things could make me blow up! I feel that I am no longer the person i used to be.

Sometimes when I am out, I will put on a mask. Deep down inside, no one knows what run through my mind, what I am truly feeling inside. Till I get home, I will remove my mask and face my true self. Music is my best friend. I communicate through songs and lyrics. It shows what I am feeling inside.

Saw this that somethings that i wrote some time ago. It is so true....

Sometimes life is jus like an upwards hill everythings seem to be going fine and good....

Sometimes life will be at the darkest valley where everythings seems to go wrong...

Sometimes i am very happy and feel that i am on the top of the world...

Sometimes i jus feel like giving up everything...

Sometimes love is so strong arnd me... Everyone loves me and i jus feel so blessed...

Sometimes love is so far away... Everyone isnt there anymore...

Sometimes i am so high!!! so so crazy...

Sometimes i am just so quiet....

Sometimes i jus feel so lost....

Sometimes i am jus so motivated to do things...

Sometimes i am in a mood for everything....

Sometimes everything jus seems so meaningless to me...

Sometimes i feel that tgt we can make a difference...

Sometimes i jus feel that the difference is the cause of the problem...

Sometimes i jus feel that there is so many friends arnd me...

Sometimes i feel that i am all alone...

Sometimes i jus feel that i am so tall and big...

sometimes i jus feel so small and tiny...

Sometimes i jus feel like hugging your teddy bear and cry

Sometimes i jus laugh out loud...

Sometimes i sing happy songs...

Sometimes i sing sad songs...

Well sometimes i look at myself and feel that i am a blessed boy...

Sometimes i look at myself and wonder if everything was fake...

Sometime i wish that the things i did could be rewind...

oh Well Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have know you...

Had a relaxing day today. Finally do something to ease my mind and then makes me wonder about you.... A song that has been my heart cry for quite some time but finally got a song to express my heart...

War

I would march acroos the desert to defeat my enemy

And I would lie here in the trenches with your picture next to me

And when I told you it's forever, then it's how its gonna be

Don't, Won't let him just take the place of me (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?

Does he really love you, like I love you, How can he compete?

If he makes me fight for you, die for you, would he do the same?

This is turning into way more than a game...

Now it feels like soldier in a war and none of us are backing down

And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He don't wanna leave and I don't fight this kind of war

You know he's not the man you this he is;

he's hiding all his flaws

so tell me what's the point of fighting?

Because we'll all end up with scars

But girl if that's what I misg go through, then I'm not prepared to lose

Cause I've already bled so much for you (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?

Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?

If he makes me fight for you, I die for you, would he do the same?

Baby this is turning into way more than a game...

Baby cause we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I dont wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He dont't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war (No, No...)

Getting kind of sick of this battle

Wish I could take it back to when I had you

I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you

It's getting hard to convince you

After all the shit that we've been through

What, would you let all this happen?

You gotta try to make it stop

It's already going too far..

Girl we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down

And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I dont wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He don't wanna and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go

And I know jus how this battle goes

He don't wanna leave and I dont wanna fight this kind of war...

Prawning was awesome... Caught quite a number of prawns... Next time shld bring more ppl along... The more the merrier...

WHOO!!!! PC show 2010 is an awesome show man! TOTALLY AWESOME! I kinda miss everything abt it now...

Breakfast with Jon Ginger Rosette and Yixuan and company! Totally hilarious lah! Getting high in the morning with This is why I'm hot and yue liang tai biao wo de xin! hahahaha Bouncing all the way! hahaha. Chionging for sales working tgt like one big family. Enjoying awesome dinner and awesome doughnut party! Totally awesome to the max!

Many photos were taken... Check out FB! I am so excited for the july show! ARGH!!!!

REGRETTED!!!! I regretted!!! I should gone for all the CAMPS when i am in year 1.... PFFT!!! If only i could turn back time. Actually, whenever i complain and then after that i look back it has always been so fun lah! LAST YEAR ALREADY!!!! CHIONG ALL CAMPS ALL ACTIVITIES!!!!!

Now looking back at cypher camp... though was rather quiet but it was fun... playing table tennis and basketball... then FOP was different! AWESOME!!! then sport camp... Soccer was great frisbee as well as the company... what is next? hahaha

I have no time already NO TIME!!!! I going to be so screwed when school reopen i swear!!! SURE DIE ONE!!!!

Stay at home the whole day... Slept alot... Abit the sian... Watching drama.

Daddy going to admit himself to the hospital tonight, cause he pass urine got blood... so have to go admit to the hospital...

Tml there will be training in the morning till afternoon, then maybe i will go to the hospital or something at night... Oh well, my mind has been so disturbed i dont understand why... I jus need a break away from you perhaps... Need to do things to keep me preoccupy if not i will sure think of u one... ARGH what is this man!

Woke up today and still feeling really tired... went to school to do FYP but it wasnt productive though... hahaha but well...

Manage to catch up with syasya jus now... and then 5 more days of relax or freedom before i entangle myself with work for 4 days... PC show... My motive is to earn as much and practice what i learn in Sales Management module and hopefully it works... hahaha

Things that meant to be joke in the first place became true. I wonder why myself at times... but i jus cant seems to find the answer. I think only time will tell but oh well till then, I jus hope things will be smoothe sailing...

LOVE LOVE LOVE

LOVE

Something that is really powerful... Recalling a dream that I have before, someone who love me so much that broke all the rules and boundaries jus to come and spend some times with me. Though it might risk trouble and punishment, but Love cause this person to take all the risk.

Though the time that we spent might be short but Love is what touches my heart. Love is what moves people heart. Through love everything can be brought down.

When a guy loves a girl, he is will to do everything to make her happy, the slightness smile could really soften his heart. Eagerly waiting for replies over the end of the other phone or just wanting to talk to her. He will want to meet her and in his heart, eagerly wanting to see her and every time he first saw her, his heart will be beating so fast as though it is the first time they are meeting. Love is not only spoken by words but mostly through action.

Love doesnt mean that there wont be quarrels or fights, but through fights and quarrel, they get to know each other better and love each other more. whenever a fight or quarrel happens, they will be back together in no time. Less than a day or so, they will be the lovely couple they are again.

When they are separated, they will always be thinking of each other all the time. They cant wait to see each other and always wondering if she is alright over the other side. The moment they see each other, they will be greeted with a hug or a kiss..

Also when a dad love his son, his love comes in many different ways. He punishes his son, and though his does not show that he is hurting when he is caning his son or punishing his son, deep down inside he do hurt a lot. After punishing his son, he will be in tears and asking if he is alright and regret doing it but knowing it will be good to his son in the future. When he is alone at night, a dad cried himself to sleeping, hurting in his heart. Whenever the son wants something, he will try his best to go get it for him as well.

He cook what is best for his son, teach him what is fun and what is good and impart his moral values into his life. He wants the best for his son, even he is willing to take something that is bad just to give the good one to his son. Just because that he dont want his son to go through what he has gone through before.

Just like God our heavenly father, who cam down and died on the cross for us. We have so many sins and things that we done wrong, even our darkest secret and yet He send His son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for us. How many of us is willing to let go os something for love for someone else? Yet he choose his son to die on the cross for our sin. Love is what moved in this story. The greatest love story of all.... Love is the best medicine for a broken and a hurting heart. There are many cause in my life when i am so touch by love... Be it in relationship, my family, my friends, my dad, my bro, my late grandparents, my friends.... This brought me out of my darkest times and at times it moves me to tears.

I am not sure why i am writing all this but somewhat it memories of LOVE jus flashes that inspire me to write this LOVE Post....

Sport Camp

First of ALL!!!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE AMELIA WUN KAI LIN!!!!!

Sport camp has been disappointing sia... Totally man... First of all No NUM shirt.... cause we all tot it was num but somehow it cock up so some chait chait shirt to do with! Then games and all are relatively boring. However SL has been interesting, they are from SAS and they have some problems with SIT ppl... so we are somehow caught in the middle.... But nevertheless i will try to avoid grudges with SIT cause there is where my roots are man!!! HAHA

Oh well there are many times that Just feel like leaving and go back home but thanks to this girL~~~~~~~ I stayed throughout the camp till now.... 4.47am here blogging... ( ABIT STUPID RITE!!!!) Grr!!!

Something funny jus happen jus now and woke all of them up! hahahaha well but it is our dirty little secret and not going to share it here though....

Nothing much to talk about... guess i will jus catch a movie or something to keep me awake till the time is up.... Till then.... ROT!!!!

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Now i went back to put my stuff and have a hot bath first before going back to school. Oh well!!! Again because of YOU! i stayed!!!! Tuan Tuan also =) Oh well.... Only manage to catch arnd 30 mins of sleep and on and off keep waking up and staring into open space.... One beside me snoring and the other stomach growling... HAHAHA damn funny super like animal kingdom lah! hahahah ANYWAY i am stuck outside my house now.. no keys to go in... waiting for daddy to come back...

Oh well!!! Half a year has pass... Many things happen... Cypher camp, made new friends, FOP 2010, manage to lead a group of super fun peers...

Coming next is Sport Camp...

Generally apart from FYP and school stuff there isnt much things to talk about.... And kinda lazy to blog... but decided to keep it back up again....

Went out today with Arvie, Amelia, TuanTuan and Winson... Well we went to walk arnd Ion then went to Kbox... then back to Ion again. It was fun hanging out with them... My love and TuanTuan... As well as arvie and winson... HAHA

Me and Arvie manage to eat our tori Q~~~ hahaha We are babi lovers lah! and pork with asparagus is awesome to the max lah....

Yupps that sums up my day today actually. Think i will go sleep now... Nite nite...

well a simple update... Not a very good start to a new year... Things are still the same i guess... It has been almost a year and i miss my grandparents... Occasionally i still think abt them. How i wish i could have someone to talk to in this type of times.... Especially my grandpa to tell me story abt life and I miss him nagging at me to save money and be a good boy... Oh well... And seeing the smile on my grandma face...

Alright will be going to school soon...

Well first day of school turn out to be a disaster... I feel damn bad inside... i dunno why... GOSH... I hope this wont happen again...

It is harding trying to please everyone... pfft!!

Yesterday was the first day of school and Yao was coming back from china so we head down to the airport to fetch her back.... So at first she told us that her flight will touch down at 2... then we went online to check the time and it was earlier. So we head down to the airport early and slack arnd the waiting area and watch hai pai tian xin...

Then after she arrivied, we went to eat our lunch at popeyes and then headed to her house.... haha It was so much fun crapping in the car and talking nonsense all the way... She bought crabs back to singapore.... OMG

Then we chill out a while before heading back for dinner and then back home... Here are some photos take...