When the Music Fade....

2013 Is Coming to an end in a few hours time...

Going for the countdown tv50 tonight. Excited.

Have been Blasting The wanted songs We own the night and other of their songs and Wang Lee Hom song all day.

Feeling pumped for later.

I dreamt alot recently. All about this same person. But when I'm awake the dream is jus so faint.

Was listening to music yesterday. When the music fade... all you see were moving picture and scenes of the world and not listening to what people have to say. Then you wont have to hear one's complain. All you see were their facial expression. And the beauty of the world. Yet there would be a curious part of you where you just want to know so badly.

Words are just words if you don't mean anything. I'm willing to do everything and anything just to make it happen.

After listening to the song Beautiful in White. I started thinking about the future. I starting thinking about my story. My soulmate. God has written a story for everyone of us. Just living it day by day would discover your own story where God has written. Sometimes I really feel like fast forward to the day where I get married and see who is that girl, and also fast forward to see my kids. I dont mind being poor, dont mind doing anything in the future, as long as I could live together with my family and my kids. Happiness is the key in life. Not the money not the material things of the world. You could have all the money in the world and not being happy what's the point right?

 Not saying that career is not important. It is important but not the most important thing in life. My dream is to contribute back to the society in the future. Perhaps I would open a orphanage in the future in a third world country.

Tomorrow marks the new chapter of my story...  Whatever happens in 2013 will be an archive. A new start. A new beginning.

With the Beast Inside.

Told myself today before going to play. I must achieve something, I must run hard, I must be calm, I must do this and do that..... #feelingmotivated

Feeling really pump up for frisbee today. I went with a goal in mind. Layout today. Manage to do a couple of it today. Need to run and need to jump higher. Now my fingers and palm are hurting whenever there's pressure on it. Blue black all over.

Half way thru... I flared up. Dint really know what was wrong, dint really know how and why and what not. But the words jus came out of my mouth. That spur of moments and that just came out. 

Now looking back at it, it was kinda stupid... So paiseh for wad happen. What would others think? aye who cares!

Went chomp chomp for dinner. Then homed.

Manage to get a ticket to Free SHow!!!! HURRAY!!! but alone ley! damn!

What if I said I feel the same, Being afraid that's why I pushed you away.

Because of lacking the courage to find out the answer, that's why I'm avoiding.

Because of You. I'm Everything I am Because You Loved Me.

Because of you, I was born again.

Because of you, I'm ransomed by your grace.

Because of you, my heart has found a home.

Because of you, sins are washed away.

Because of you, heaven knows my name.

Because of you, I can live again.

Because of you, the weak say "I am strong".

Because of you the broken have a song.

Because of you, there's no need to fear.



For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

My Heart Will Follow Wholly After You.

Siaoons celebrated christmas on Boxing day. 26/12/2013. Will Update it later.

Today went to marriot hotel to have buffet lunch. I just spam oyster to the max only.

A song that means everything to someone special. One day I would sing this song to her on the very special day. 

Not sure if you know this
But when we first met
I got so nervous I couldn't speak
In that very moment
I found the one and
My life had found its missing piece

So as long as I live I'll love you
Will heaven hold you?

You look so beautiful in white
And from now to my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

What we have is timeless
My love is endless
And with this ring
I Say to the world
You're my every reason you're all that I believe in
With all my heart I mean every word

So as long as I live I'll love you
Will heaven hold you?
You look so beautiful in white
And from now to my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

oooh oh
You look so beautiful in white

So beautiful in white
Tonight

And if a daughters what our future holds
I hope she has your eyes
Finds love like you and I did
Yeah, I wish she falls in love and I'll let her go
I'll walk her down the aisle
She'll look so beautiful in white

You look so beautiful in white

So as long as I live I'll love you
Will have and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now to my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

The lyrics is so meaningful So real.

What we have is timeless
My love is endless
And with this ring
I Say to the world
You're my every reason you're all that I believe in
With all my heart I mean every word 

TO the chorus. All is just so nice and meaningful.

So as I long as I live I'll Love you. And from now till my very last breath, this day I'll cherish. 

Tonight.

Christmas Day.

Christmas is not just about the gift and chocolates we received or give. Christmas is more than just santa claus, lighting and the christmas tree. Christmas is where the world celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. It was the day where Christ was born. The greatest gift of all is where God send his son to die on the cross for you and me. That's the greatest gift of all. As the lyrics of one song (we are the reason) goes...

As little childrenWe would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

Everyone has a story to share. Everyone has a race to run. In life we are running a race far longer than the longest marathon in the world. It starts the moment you are born. It only ends when you give your last breath away. We made many decisions and we made many choices. Good or bad. It moulds us to who we are today. Though one's story might be similar to one another but no one is identical. Everyone is unique. We face consequences to our decision and choices. It might be good, it might be bad. We learn from our mistakes and move on. Sometimes I feel that no matter what happens, there is still a vacuum inside. There is still an emptiness inside that I couldn't explain. There is just this void the couldn't be fill. A simple kid's song that I learnt from sunday school will just moved me to tears.

Jesus loves me this I know.

For the bible tells me so.

Little ones to Him belong.

They are weak but He is strong.

Yes Jesus Loves me.

Yes Jesus Loves me

Yes Jesus Loves me.

The bible tells me so.

Jesus Loves me He who died.

Heaven's gate to open wide.

He will wash away my sin

Let His little child come in.

This is a simple and yet powerful song. They lyrics are simple but I always weep when I am down and will be singing this alone at home in one corner. It just affirms me that I will never be alone and there is always one person out there, Jesus, who loves me. Jesus Promised that we will never walk alone in every circumstance. He will always be there holding us and walking with us all the way. 

Life is like a pencil...

Have you Heard of the story of a Pencil?

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:

‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’
His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn’t seem very special.
‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.’

‘First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.’
‘Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.
‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.’
‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.’
‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action’

 Source from: “Like the Flowing River” by Paulo Coelho

There are always some painful sharpening that we have to go thru to be a better person. From time to time, we will be going thru various problems in life, we need it to make us become a stronger person.  What matters most is not on the outside but its on the inside. Always be yourself, be what you are and not what others want of you. And always leave a mark. Either a good and nice memories or hurts and scars. So be careful what you leave behind. Never stop leaving a mark.

Lastly, I must admit that I might not be the nicest person or the most righteous christian around. I'm still of flesh and blood. No one is perfect. If I ever offend you in ways knowingly or unknowingly. I would like to apologize, and ask for your forgiveness. I'm sorry for what I've caused to you. I might have said things to hurt you, or do things to make you feel hurt. I'm really sorry. Let's strive for a better tomorrow together.

25.12.2013

Merry Christmas to ALL!

   Mistletoe

It’s the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

I don’t wanna miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

Everyone's gathering around the fire
Chestnuts roasting like a hot July
I should be chilling with my folks, I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe

Word on the street Santa's coming tonight,
Reindeer's flying through the sky so high
I should be making a list, I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

Aye, love, the wise men followed the star
The way I followed my heart
And it led me to a miracle

Aye, love, don't you buy me nothing
'cause I am feeling one thing, your lips on my lips
That’s a merry, merry Christmas

It’s the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe

I don’t wanna miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you, under the mistletoe, under the mistletoe

Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh, ohhh

Kiss me underneath the mistletoe,
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh, ohhh

Life Goes On, When Shit Happens.

Yesterday Went church in the morning and then went to bedok blk 74, 75 & 76 to gave out Christmas Gift to the residence there at the same time inviting them for our Christmas Services.

It was a fun experience to interact with the community.

Then after that have to head back to church and help daddy clear up the remaining gift and pack them up. After we are done, we are all so hungry so went to 69 to have charsiew rice and cheng tng.

Daddy drove me to tamp to collect my bottle before heading home...

KO till 8 plus. Wake up wash up and prepare to go M'sia for supper/dinner. While daddy went to get the car, me and my bro took a photo. He got me the singlet from beach bonanza so we wore it out.

Had Frog legs and durian for supper and came back cause bro had to work the next day....

It jam like mad last night 3 hrs in the car before clearing the customs and head home.

Today gonna go get the wrapper and then get the remaining gift and materials for the card i suppose.

So much things to do but so little time. Holidays is coming to an end. It was just like yesterday when exams is jus round the corner.

I just wanna follow.

10 000 Reasons.

The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

[Chorus]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

You're rich in love, and You're slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find

[Chorus]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore

[Chorus x2]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
Lord, I'll worship Your holy name

Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name
Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
I'll worship Your holy name