In the end it was never between you and them anyway.

Came across some photos that are really inspirational and true.

The way you want to.

Friday
Had lesson in the morning and then go home for a very short nap. Wake up having a headache and went to Clementi to meet Jenn to buy bananas before going to recrea. BUT BUT BUT! Everywhere we went there wasnt any banana for sales... Then we went over for recrea... Pick up was fun. The atmosphere was different somehow and it was exciting and fun.

After that went supper with the seniors opposite beauty world to have Frog legs. Then we had ice cream. Then back home....

Saturday
A day of rest. Sleep wake up sleep wake up eat and sleep and watch TV! hahahaha


Draw me nearer to you, nearer to you. Fill my life with your presence the way you want to, till my soul is ablaze each and every day. Draw me nearer, nearer to you.

You're not alone in how you've been. Everybody loses, we all got bruises

Yesterday went to school for macro. Then after class head home and crash! Was so so tired.

Woke up and head to east coast park to skate alone... Mr. Lonely! But nevertheless it was fun... Went from big splash to bedok jetty and back and forth 2 times...  Speedy... Then on the 2nd time where, chill at bedok jetty for quite a bit. Just love sitting there enjoying the breeze and looking at people fishing and go about doing their thing...

It is one of my fav spot to hang out. Used to remember when I am down or need some time alone, I would always go east coast park to take a walk and just sit at bedok jetty and ponder on anything... Here I am doing it again!

Just love the scenery there....

But first, let me take a selfie.

 And another Selfie!

Then about 7 or so, I went to showered and wait for Theresa and Jenn to come and have dinner. So they take awhile to reach and then we have our dinner at a restaurant. Look at them, enjoying their crabs.... Pincer... They look so happy! haha

*One for you & one for you, two for you and two for you, BUT none for me* Boohoo!

(Kidding)

 Theresa with her Claws!

So the crab got her eyeballs? HAHA JENN JENN....

After dinner, we went to throw disc! We threw for about 1.5 hrs! haha till passed midnight... Before heading home... 

 Today went to work... Well if there was stock would have sold 4 macbook or iMac... But but no stock so only many to sell 1... But still, not that bad eh.

Tomorrow will be working again! Nex! Anyone wanna have lunch or dinner at Nex?

Oh! Met up with Yvonne today!  Chatted up a bit. Still look the same though haha

Here is a song to end the night.

Haven't seen you since high school
Good to see you're still beautiful
Gravity hasn't started to pull
Quite yet I bet you're rich as hell

One that's five and one that's three
Been two years since he left me
Good to know that you got free
That town I know was keeping you down on your knees

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses, we all got bruises
We all got bruises

Have you seen him? Not in years
How about her? No but I hear
She's in Queens with the man of her dreams
Funny back then she said that about you

Que sera you'll never guess who I saw
Remember Johnny B remember him we were best friends practically
Let's do this soon again, ten years is that what it's been?
Can't believe how time flies by
Leaving you makes me wanna cry

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses, we all got bruises
We all got bruises

I would love to fix it all for you
I would love to fix you too
Please don't fix a thing whatever you do

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to know you've got a friend
That you remember now and then
Everybody loses

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses,everybody loses, everybody loses
We all got bruises, We all got bruises, We all got bruises

Nothing on earth is as beautiful as you.

At 10 pm today, the official news to MH370 was out. It was assumed to have gone down in the Indian ocean with no survivors. Somehow, I still have this glimmer of hope that it might be wrong... There might be some survivors... or what not....

Ever been in a situation where you are trying to help someone but you just don't know what are the right words to say?  You really want to help but in the end you might just be making it worse. Sometimes you say, I know how you feel. But do you really know how they feel? You said I've been through before, but how sure are you that it is in the same situation? The other party might be crying, might be hurting so badly that you inventiveness would have just cause more hurt to them. So what should you do? What would you say? 告诉我。

A hurting heart. Everywhere is just fill with memories. Fill with all the images of being with that once special someone. Anything could have led you to think of that someone. You try to avoid. Yet you kinda smile inside as those bitter sweet memories. Then the reality strikes you when you realised that you wont get it back anymore. Yet, some doesn't just give up there. Some try to get back on level terms. Promise to change, promise to be different again. But how long will this last? How long does it takes before you go back to the same old self you used to be? It was never easy going through such stages of life. It was never easy.... When all your world is just revolving around that someone and you forsake your friends and when that someone leave, you feel that a big part of you is just missing. You totally lost yourself. Trying to sleep your days away. Hoping that once you wake up, everything will be alright. Then friends and people will come into your life. They encourages you and they cheer you up. Going out with you and trying to make you forget about all the unhappy stuff. But once you are home and you are alone, your thoughts are just filled with all the memories. The nights seems so hard to come by.

Months went on and you seems to get used to it and it doesn't hurt as much as before, you finally gave up trying. You come to accept the fact that it is not going to work out. But do you still carry some hope? Do you still have any feelings? Having the hope that one day if that person come backs to you you will just drop everything and go back to the person again? Or would you totally give up? 

Well, everyone is unique. We all have our purposes in this life. Why dislike yourself? Why feel that others are better? Yes some might be gifted in a certain way, some might not be as gifted but that is just the way of life. It sucks to know that sometimes you just want to do something so badly and you cant. For eg. Someone who is love to sing, want to sing so badly but being tone deaf, wouldn't really sing or every time he sings, he will get laugh at. But does that stop him from singing? If he gives up there and then, he would have just lost it. But having to go for classes, and practicing more everyday, he manage to sing at least in the proper key. Some may be born perfect, some less perfect. Therefore practicing makes perfect. You need hard work and determination. Some have strong attributes than the other. Let's take a blind person for example. Have been noticing them as there is a blind association near my house and I have been noticing them on few occasion. Though they are blind but they are independent. They also have a good sense of touch and a very good sense of hearing compare to a normal person. They have these to even out with those who have a sense of sight. We all are different and unique in our own ways. 

Be who you are and not who you want yourself to be.

Friday, went to school in the morning for class and went home after that. Slept for about an hour or so and head to clementi to meet Jenn for recrea. Then we bought bananas and head to the bus interchange to take bus 7. Then we saw the bus came and board the bus. Unknowingly the bus changed service after we board the bus. And it went on a different route. So we were caught by surprise and alight 2 stops later and walk back to the interchange and took the correct bus this time....

After Recrea, Theresa came and we went for supper at HV, Xin Wang before heading home.

Saturday is a stay home saturday for me. Sleep eat FIFA and sleep...

Sunday, went to church in the morning and Pick up in the evening. It was fun but the pitch is filled with holes. Not long later, I kinda twisted my ankle and it hurts like mad again. Went home, bathed and off to malaysia with dad and bro. Bro wanted to ate frog leg porridge and I just want to have some family time and eat durians... BUT BUT BUT!!! bro was too tired so we went back without having my durians!!!!!! 

Monday blues... Slept only 3-4 hours before going to school. Was damn tired and sleepy in class, but it is LAW class! My favorite module so it manage to keep me awake. As usual, break time is samosa time and saw many people today! Yee Meng, Raynor, JunXi and.... hahaha

After school went to RP to have western before heading over to Syasya house. At syasya house, we talked about our friends and classmate in poly. Some got married, some MIA Some even have kids already! Their kids are all so cute. It makes me feel like having one of my own too! Don't mind being a full time dad now! haha

Then after went to causeway to walk abit before heading home.... 

Decide to eat healthy today so bought strawberries, banana and fruity pebble for dinner!

Ending off with some canto songs.

＊真的爱你＊

＊海阔天空＊

＊情人＊

＊唯独你是不可取替＊

This are some of my favorite canto songs. A bit old school. Totally love this the most 唯独你是不可取替 by 许志安. Here is one chinese song that I have been hearing almost every where that caught my attention and a english song.

＊如果没有你＊

*When I Look At You*

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights are long

'cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yeah when my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I, I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I, I
I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

Yeah when my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I, I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I, I
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need
Every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful
Yeah, yeah, yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I, I
I look at you

I look at you
Yeah,
Whoa-oh,
You appear just like a dream to me

One day, I'll stop trying. One day, I'll stop caring. One day, I'll stop loving. One day....

It always seems impossible until it's done.

The moment I listen to it. I feel in love with this song... The feel is just so....

So now I am station at NEX!!! Whoohoo!!! Happy! Glad to be back to NEX. So much good food and Love the shop culture there. 

*Love is all around*

Oldies.... Oldies....

*Only Love*

*From the bottom of my broken heart*

Time to spend a little money on myself.

In need of getting a new Earphones and thinking if I should invest on a in ear monitors. 

or should I just get Shure se535...

Unique melody Mage or Aero. Then I would have to go to do a mold on my ears so it would be custom fit to my ears only. Love this wood finish design.

SO many other colors to choose from... 

Spoilt for choices.

Next on the list would be a Headphones amplifier. To complete a good portable sound rig, it's a must have. 

I've been looking for a new bag pack for awhile now...  I saw one that looks not bad... But it cost a bomb....

Black

 Grey

 Red

Olive.

Kinda like the red one... BUT BUT.... I've too many red bag.... =(

This is one of the bag that have the similar design as the NIKE one that I've been searching for years...

30l.

40l

The 40l one is like too big... 

Quite tempted to get this pair of cleats.... for collection purposes...

 It's knitted....

It's 439..... 

Hmmm....

I will surely get this once it's out....

 It's so damn nice.....

Flywire technology and also 3D studs pattern.

After church today, went to ah seah teo chew porridge with dad and bro. Had teo chew porridge at my dad's friend relative place. It is damn nice. Love the ikan billis, sting ray, salted veg, fish cake, sotong..... many dish. But sadly today they dont have LALA!!!! 

Then we happen to pass by Chomp Chomp and I suggest that we go have Dessert at some place. The durian mousse is damn awesome. Wanted to bring daddy there, so since we pass by might as well right?

Came home to sleep for awhile, then wanted to study and bro challenge me to a 'championship match'. So it is Spain v Brazil. ( Bro v Me )

He lost. Yet again. HAHA for how many times already he hasnt won yet! HAHA 

Then we went down to throw disc for about an hour. He taught me how to mark. Manage to try out the chicken wing throw. Need to practice more on that....

Came home and watch Man u got trash by liverpool. =(

Decided to read abit of law after that and gonna sleep soon.

Had a weird dream last night... I dreamt about you again....

I wanted you....

Renew My Life.

Well, suppose to watch IVP today. But gave it a miss for the morning fixtures. Was too tired. Woke up and manage to do abit of study before going down to watch the final match of SIM v RP. Final score 9-5. Then came home to sleep a little before studying again and watching Lionxii match. Disappointing match.

Yesterday, heather finally buy us starbucks! (which she owe for damn long already!) So morning I went to hv to get it. Went for the usual boring HRM class. and then to ethics class. Jenn Crash my class though. After class went to get my notes printed out and left for Jems with Jenn. Went to buy my shoelace and had lunch at Ambush or something. Had seafood pasta. Then went to get some sushi and then to Recrea.

It's been a while since there was recrea and awhile since I last played. Abit rusty. Throws are quite bad. Had cramps on the calf towards the end. Totally dint stretch or warm up.

So after recrea went to had supper with Theresa, Jenn and Shufeng at some place near holland v. It's been awhile since we last meet and there were many things to talk about... or it's jus us that we always have things to talk about. Then before we know it it was already 1. Shufeng send us all home. 

Cough isnt getting any better. So hard to sleep at night.

I miss the old. I miss the past. Memories that last forever. 

I look forward to the future but there is always the fear of the unknown.

In my life and thoughts there are so many things, that need the change that only your love can bring.Re

And I know that thou art with me, wilt be with me to the end.

My Chains are gone, I've been set free. My God, my savior has ransomed me and like a flood His mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace.

I'm so glad I learned to trust thee, precious Jesus, Savior , Friend. And I know that thou art with me, wilt be with me to the end.

Some would say that you cannot be found, some would say that you are far away. But I know you're the god who lives in me. I know you will always have my heart.

One of my all time favorite song.

Got my exams date... 4 papers back to back. Before May I could start my Holidays! Have to start studying already.

High anger =  Low mentality results in foolish mistakes and stupid actions.