HAiZ now my grandpa dont wanna go see doc already... AHH!!!! I tried to talk to him and he say maybe he will go... but he still dunno his situation...

Anyway has been visiting him recently almost everyday... soon i will be going over to stay there already i think from thurs onwards or next week... i will try my best to make him happy for the rest of his life... I love him alot alot... but seriously i really dunno what to do... i am shocked and jus feel so useless in this situation... Damn!!!

Anyway i'll be heading to the gym later and go for a swim... I wanna  get fit... i wanna lose 10 kg in like 1 month??? hahaha orange juice everyday for a month... hahaha... anyway, it jus seems that i am getting fatter and fatter lah! eat and eat and eat... then sleep.... whalao eh! hmmm

Think i will be getting my taylor very soon already if  mummy is going to buy for me... my bro wanna buy a takamine haha....  he gotta pay himself... hahaha

Went supermarket after visiting ah gong then bought alot food back... which means i will eat more food... whahaha beef lamb fish.... so may things... 

Daddy say tml there will be some worm release on the internet dunno true ornot... so yupps... wha i use the macbook pro the other day!!! wha damn nice lah! cant wait for mine to come!!! AHH THIS WEEK OR NEXT WEEK will get liao!!! HURRAY!!!

Orh i think i shld bring my cue to the club too!!! if i wanna pract my snooker can play also.... cause i think now my pool sucks!!! damn 

CRISIS CRISIS CRISIS!!!!

Sudden news came to me and i was not surprise at all.... i hold myself strong not shedding a tear infront of all of you.... I was sad... i felt that i am useless and unable to do much but to pray and ask God and rely on Him alone.... Nothing can be done... no doctors can cure it or anything except Jesus! I totally rely and ask God for His will on my grandpa...  I know God is doing something in his life.... i dont believe 3 to 6 months is what is left...

Calling all saints!!! Do keep me and my family in prayer.... Esp my grandpa... For God's will on his life.... THANKS THANKS LOADS!!!! 

Wha ah gong called me this morning at abt 8.51... i tot what happen.... he called me to say he wanna cut hair and need my help... then he say he need to see doc later... then i told him say the doc is at 3 so can cut later... But he say too late.... then i told him i will call him back... then i talk to my daddy and then i called again and now he say 11 can!!! WHA i am jus so tired lah.... whalao... i wan my sleep!!!!

Still having flu, cough and sore throat... fever is on and off now... wha!!! but yesterday i went out to meet jav ten G and von... but after meeting like 20 min von have to go off cause her dad called and wanna book something so she rushed home... then we went to watch the unborn... It's like damn nothing much lor.... but a really nice storyline... hmmm We tried to scare jav cause she scare me at first... so we stick out hand out and "HURR!!!" den in the end me and g started laughing and the uncle beside us also laugh lah! damn ps!!! whahaha Then went to re ben chun to eat.. whahaha then Ten drive us to lucky plaza to play pool.... then after that i train home...  Reach home at abt 9 plus... then wha dad cook pig tongue lah! whoo!!! so i ate 2... then wanted to watch some movie on my lappy but too tired to do anything but to sleep in the end...

No photos taken though cause.... no cam whore buddy with me... hahaha... 

ORh anyway my new class is W64A-B Dunno what module i taking sia! 1 is financial accounting, data based dunno what, then some programming.... dunno already... G and me same block same floor also... then Ten is w66 something... same block also... shiok lah... von is like jus next to our block w5... bl also... ya lor... whooo

Think next week will be going to sentosa! hope by then i'll be better... ok lah gonna rest a while and heading to tpy with daddy le!!!  CHAO!!!

Wha damn i am sick!!! super sick! was having a fever today and FLU AND bad voice... damn!!! Sore throat.... My head damn pain.... So whole day at home watch movie... watch the punisher.... going to watch thunder rats and mall cop.... whahaha yeah  Wha think i fell sick because of sat lack of sleep.... then became sick... AHH DAMN!!! i wanna be healthy again!!!!

Good morning!!! Wha somehow or rather i was like in tears now... read a really touching story abt siblings... damn! really touching lah.... Also i really must say this few days am really tired physically and mentally... I really need a wonder touch from God!!! 

First of all i am sick! my voice became like sai! and having flu is damn terrible!!! plus sore throat... wha also not making anything better lah! whahaha yesterday heliang went to cut his hair! damn funny! he look like a monkey now... whahaha he got a square face lah! whahaha he said he will never go back to the same place to cut his hair again. It was at 888. Hahaha i will still prefer andy ong... hahaha yeah but i dont think i will cutting soon i guess... 

I really wonder why i jus cant give up on some things? i really that stubborn?? well hmmm or is it determination??? hahaha 

Am i a loner??? I really dunno.... i used to like going out with frens... but now.... it seems otherwise... what happen??? I will never like going out alone but now i really dont mind... is it because of my age or is it my mindset have change? Sometime i think going out alone is so much better than going out with a group... ARGH!

Is is stress that i am feeling now? or is it something else??? wha! Songs seems to keep playing in my mind... OR i shld go K and sing them out? after i recover from my flu i will surely go to k and sing one... AHH!!!

Ok  here is the real touching story....

I was born in a secluded village on a mountain.

Day by day, my parents plowed the yellow dry soil with
their backs towards the sky.

I have a brother who is 3 years younger than me.

I wanted to buy a handkerchief, which all girls around
me seemed to have. So,
one day I stole 50 cents from my father's drawer.
Father had discovered about
the stolen money right away.

He made me and my younger brother kneel against the
wall as he held a bamboo
stick in his hand.

"Who stole the money?" he asked.

I was stunned, too afraid to talk. Neither of us
admitted to the fault, so he
said, "Fine, if nobody wants to admit, you two should
be beaten!"

He lifted up the bamboo stick.

Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and
said," Dad, I was the one
who did it!"

The long stick smacked my brother's back repeatedly.

Father was so angry that he kept on whipping my
brother until he lost his
breath.

After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded
my brother, "You have
learned to steal from your own house now. What other
embarrassing things will
you be possibly d oing in the future? You should be
beaten to death, you
shameless thief!"

That night, my mother and I hugged my brother. His
body was full of wounds from
the beating but he never shed a single tear.

In the middle of the night, all of sudden, I cried out
loudly.

My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and
said, " Sis, now don't cry
anymore. Everything has happened."

I still hate myself for not having enough courage to
admit what I did.

Years gone by, but the incident still seemed like it
just happened yesterday.

I will never forget my brother's ___expression when he
protected me.

That year, my brother was 8 years old and I was 11
years old.

When my brother was in his last year of secondary
school, he was accepted in an
upper secondary school in the central. At the same
time, I was accepted into a university in the
province.

That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking,
packet by packet.

I could hear him ask my mother, "Both of our children,
they have good results?
very good results?"

Mother wiped off her tears and sighed," What is the
use? How can we possibly
finance both of them?"

At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in front
of father and said, "Dad,
I don't want to continue my study anymore, I have read
enough books."

Father swung his hand and slapped my brother on his
face!

"Why do you have a spirit so damn weak? Even if it
means I have to beg for money
on the streets,

I will send you two to school until you have both
finished your study!"

And then, he started to knock on every house in the
village to borrow money.

I stuck out my hand as gently as I can to my brother's
swollen face, and told
him, "A boy has to continue his study; If not, he will
not be able to overcome
this poverty we are experiencing."

I, on the other hand, had decided not to further my
study at the university.

Nobody knew that on the next day, before dawn, my
brother left the house with a
few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans. He
sneaked to my side of the
bed and left a note on my pillow; "Sis, getting into a
university is not easy. I
will go find a job and I will send money to you."

I held the note while sitting on my bed, and cried
until I lost my voice.

That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years
old.

With the money father borrowed from the whole village,
and the money my brother
earned from carrying cement on his back at a
construction site,finally, I
managed to get to the third year of my study in the
university.

One day, while I was studying in my room, my roommate
came in and told
me,"There's a villager waiting for you outside!"

Why would there be a villager looking for me?

I walked out, and I saw my brother from afar. His
whole body was covered with
dirt, dust, cement and sand.

I asked him, "Why did you not tell my roommate that
you are my brother?"

He replied with a smile," Look at my appearance. What
will they think if they
would know that I am your brother? Won't they laugh at
you?"

I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes. I swept
away dirt and dust from my
brother's body. And told him with a lump in my throat,
"I don't care what people
would say! You are my brother no matter
what your appearance is?"

From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip.

He put it on my hair and said, "I saw all the girls in
town are wearing it. So,
I think you should also have one."

I could not hold back myself anymore. I pulled my
brother into my arms and
cried.

That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years
old.

I noticed that the broken window was repaired the
first time I brought my
boyfriend home. The house was scrubbed cleaned.

After my boyfriend left, I danced like a little girl
in front of my mother,
"Mom, you didn't have to spend so much time cleaning
the house!" But she told me
with a smile," It was your brother who went home early
to clean the house.
Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He hurt his hand
while he was replacing
the window."

I went into my brother's bedroom. Looking at his thin
face, I felt like there
are hundreds of needle pricked in my heart.

I applied some ointment on his wound and put a bandage
on it, "Does it hurt? " I
asked him.

"No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when at the
construction site, stones keep
falling on my feet. Even that could not stop me from
working."

In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my
back on him and tears
rolled down my face.

That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years
old.

After I got married, I lived in the city. Many times
my husband invited my
parents to come and live with us, but they didn't
want.

They said, once they left the village,they wouldn't
know what to do.

My brother agreed with them. He said, "Sis, you just
take care of your
parents-in-law. I will take care of mom and dad here."

My husband became the director of his factory. We
asked my brother to accept the
offer of being the manager in the maintenance
department. But my brother
rejected the offer. He insisted on working as a
repairman instead for a start.

One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder
repairing a cable, when he got
electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital.

My husband and I visited him at the hospital.

Looking at the white gypsum on his leg, I grumbled,
"Why did you reject the
offer of being a manager? Managers won't do something
dangerous like that. Now
look at you, You ar suffering a serious injury. Why
didn't you just listen to
us?"

With a serious ___expression on his face, he defended
his decision, "Think of
brother-in-law. He just became the director, and I
being uneducated, and would
become a manager, what kind of rumors would
fly around?"

My husband's eyes filled up with tears, and then I
said, "But you lack in
education only because of me!"

"Why do you talk about the past?" he said and then he
held my hand.

That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old.

My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmer
girl from the village.

During the wedding reception, the master of ceremonies
asked him, "Who is the
one person you respect and love the most?"

Without even taking a time to think, he answered," My
sister." He continued by
telling a story I could not even remember.

"When I was in primary school, the school was in a
different village. Everyday,
my sister and I would walk for 2 hours to school and
back home. One day, I lost
the other pair of my gloves. My sister gave me one of
hers.

She wore only one glove and she had to walk far. When
we got home, her hands
were tremblin g because of the cold weather that she
could not even hold her
chopsticks. From that day on, I swore that as long as
I live, I would take care
of my sister and will always be good to her."

Applause filled up the room. All guests turned their
attention to
me.

I found it hard to speak, "In my whole life, the one I
would like to thank most
is my brother," And in this happy occasion,in front of
the crowd, tears were
rolling down my face again.

Love and care for the one you love every single day of
your life. You may think
what you did is just a small deed, but to that
someone, it may mean a lot.

 It is really touching and we should all be like that.... 

~Scary me!!! *ROAR*~

I like this pic!

~Busy~BUSY~busy~BUSY~

This weekend was really tiring and really busy for me... started from Friday... My acc my ah gong to see doc with my dad... so went to RH to see doc then the doc somewhat counsel my ah gong cause we suspect he got depression... so the doc know us and say my ah gong became really run down and skinny so he wanted to check if anything is wrong so we went for blood test... So went for the test and do an xray to see if anything is wrong... and everything is good except for a marker that is really unusual.  Normally ppl will have 5 but my ah gong has 50 over.... so the doc ask my ah gong to admit to hospital lor... to do further check the next day cause they need him to take somthing and flush out all the sai in the body and insert things from the ass and the mouth to check.....

ah gong resting

So i was struggling whether to go to the LA retreat or acc my ah gong cause i know that he really scare to stay in the hospital and i have been persuading him to go check up so if that is the case i shld stay to acc him... cannot leave him there like that ma.... so i called charlene and told her the situation... So acc my ah gong lor.... then he ask us to go back... and we like if he can handle then we go back.... but then he cannot take the liquid the doc ask him to take... so we talk to the nurse and decided to change the med... so we stay back... so cute lah! my dad and me stay with my ah gong till the next morning.  Arnd 1 am we went to take his clothes from home and went to eat supper at lau pa sat... then came back and my ah gong was awake and he ask where we go... so we say we go eat... then we acc him will the next morning... by 5.30 i was damn tired and the chair was like killing me... so i went out and sleep on the sofa... then 7 plus my er gu came and saw me sleeping outside the lift area... then she ask me where is the room... so i woke up and bring her in... then early morning my ah gong go do scopy... then the doc came and told us that he suspect that my ah gong got cancer in the colon area... WE ALL WERE LIKE SHOCK!!! and dunno what to do so i prayed and my dad prayed too.... then we were thinking abt the worse scenario... how to tell ah ma and if need operation how and all.... so we were all waiting for the result and when the doc call us and told us we all was relieve that he say nothing much... they cannot find anything so my ah gong can discharge and need to do a CT scan to check somemore... so friday i will be going to the hospital again. HOPE everything is ok!

*daddy discussing with er gu and me*

Then after that i went back to sleep cause i was having a headache already and was really tired... so went back and sleep already. then sunday went to church and then headed to malaysia after that because we wanted to eat ice cream!!! whoo!! then eat ice cream then went to buy some stuff and came back already... ya lor that sums up my busy weekend.... now weekdays i'll go back to composing songs and do some exercise!!! i damn fat already.... so need to workout.... then eat less lor... =P

YUM YUM!!!

ahh!!! cant wait to get my mac!!! early april!!! FASTER!!!

I love this type of sky.... so nice!!!

RAINBOW!!!

Jus woke up... was damn tired yesterday.... So slept quite early lor... Ya lor...

Yesterday was like all plans cancel because of someone who i need to pass something to someone... i dont wanna delay it already so i cancel everything... then jus nice my cousin came to my ah ma house... then we were like so bored at home so i said wanna go watch movie??? they say ok! so we went to check there is movie like at 4.30 HOTELS FOR DOGS... 

So damn nice lah! whahaha the dogs are so cute... hmmm well i cried in the movie... ops... I brought 2 girls out lah! zirui and ziyan... shawnboy was sleeping and we ask him to go but he dont wan.... so ya lor..

When i pass you the stuff my heart freaking beat damn fast... so happy to see you... my mind go blank... i really dunno what to do and say.... so it lasted few sec.... then after that....

Anyway then i went back with the girls and ate dinner... then i was told that my ah gong wanted to go see doc now... so i was like SO SO HAPPY LAH!!! PRAYER WORKS MAN!!! so i told my dad and he made appointment lor.... yeah!!! then he told me that he was scare.... but  i told him not to worry...

Thanks for everyone who pray... =)

YOU MAKE ME WANNA

You know you make me wanna...
You know you make me wanna...

To start it off i know you know me,
to come to think of it, it was only last week
that i had a dream about us, oh
thats why im here, im writing this song
to tell the truth you know ive been hurting all along,
someway let me know, you want me girl,
everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man and you're the queen,
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need,
baby thats why...

Chorus
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

Well i know that these feelings wont end now
they'll just get stronger if i see you again
Baby im tired of being friends
I wanna know if you feel the same,
and could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man an youre the queen
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need
baby thats why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

I'll take you home real quick
sit you down on the couch
pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out,
Baby we can make sweet love,
then we'll take it nice and slow
Gonna touch you like youve never known before
we're gonna make love ohhh

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,

You make me wanna surrender my soul 

This song is like so in me now... it is exactly how i am feeling lor... whahahaha....

Well hejiang is becoming a song writer??? hahaha well so far my songs are christian based.... well but soon i will write some songs abt love... abt life... soon lah i hope.... Anyways wrote 1 and a half song already... first one is a Eng song... it sounds stupid but it's a song anyway..... then second one is a chinese and eng song.... mainly chinese but maybe a verse of eng or something....

Yup!!! teach my bro my song lah yesterday and jus grabbing my guitar the whole day and playing and singing and jus figuring the words cause i get the tune first... Hope i can get enough songs to make an album lor... hmmm BONG MUST HELP ME K!!! whahaha 

So yesterday also played mahjong... played a new style lah! we play with a pot of money so anyone can increase the pot and we must follow! so abit poker style!!! but guess what i lost alot and i borrow from banker and lost 1500 dollars in lalala land... Phew...

So Ordered Macbook Pro already... it will come arnd early april... SO abt 2~ 3 weeks more... thanks uncle eddy and i save abt 1000 dollars... wha! alot money!!! so now i can get my acoustic guitar already.... whoo!!!! so so many things lah!!! OH i need a chinese bible too! whahaha i wanna read the bible in chinese.... cause i wanna write songs in chinese....

Then yesterday my dad steam the groupa.... ok lah quite nice! and the bak dao which is cuttlefish... taste great...

Anyway yesterday quarrel with my bro.... like c'mon lah who doesnt? then today morning kena scolding we both... damn! but now we gang up against my father... whahahaha jus so weird! yesterday we quarrel today we help each other! what an irony...

So jus wondering.... is it better to be the first born or be the 2nd one??? Being first born we get blame for what ever it is.... what ever happen we kena blame.... 2nd one wanna be first... but i think first one u get the blessing the most and u take up alot responsibility... so so much lor... anyway... I jus dunno lah....

My first song is " This is my cry"

My second song is "和你在一起"

Wanting more songs lah... Ahh...

Jus a little bit one my 2nd song....

耶稣我来赞美你

你一直在我怀里

一天到晚都要和你在一起。

It may seems weird lah!!! hahaha... Then yesterday talk abt how many kids i wan... whahaha then i was  like 6!!! whahaha but quite impossible lah!!! hahaha 2~4 is ok already.. then can go adopt more.... whahaha....

Kid's lover...

So more abt today morning... woke up damn damn early!!! 6 plus i wake up liao... bring my bro to church!!! he got some camp at sembawang BB campsite... so wake up early then headed to my ah ma house... yeah so i will be here.... but wha  later got so many things to do lah! i  need to change US currency... then i need to get money... i need to do alot things.... later.... then gotta go jurong.... ARGH!!!

Yesterday wasnt my day lah kena scolding in the morning and at night! haIX why is it like that... hmmm i jus dont understand.. DAMN! hmmm SUAY SIA! Then haiZ alot things! my mood is like so down yesterday..... seems like it doesnt matter to me anymore...

Stupid blogger got somthing wrong cant post the pic! sian.... haiZ.... todays malaysia also like dont wanna go already lah! play mahjong? damn sian! i jus wanna sleep the whole day! or jus go out to take a breather! BEACH!!! HERE I COME!!! sewbawang beach!!!!

Whoo!! today i stay home  and sleep lah! too tired.... heliang woke me up and i was like so reluctant to wake up! so i told daddy i wanna sleep...So daddy and heliang went out while i stay home sleep.. then wake up then sleep again then went to pick HL then went to take our tv... haha... that really sums up my day... But something i did today...

I WROTE A SONG!!! Title... My prayer( i think)

Whahaha i will still fine tune it here and there... How this song came abt when i was playing my guitar or rather i was thinking since no one is at home why not u blast my amp and jus worship God since i dint go church today... spend some time with God... then i was singing All who are thirsty... I suddenly jus playing this song and words jus came out like that...  so it repeated few times and i quickly took a pencil and paper to write it down... so here is goes.... My prayer....

The lyrics seems so weird... Anyway i will record it when i get my mac and post it.... so stay tuned... hahaha Here is my KUKU FAT face...

*ring ring*

 OK lah going sentosa tml with my bs group i think so...  I haven dont my vocals recording and never practice much!!! die liao! whahaha Anyway going to sleep already!! nite!!! 

Ok MAN U LOST!!! 

OK not really bothered abt that... My life now seems to gets better.... My relationship with my dad is getting better and well there are many things in my life that i am trying to change.... Truely I seems to have wonder astray... Getting my life back in line now... It seems like i have turn my focus on other things... GOD Thank you for your LOVE!!! Really not by coincidence that i am in church today cause i really dont feel like going today one.....

Anyway friday went IT show with Mas Selamat!!!  Was fun lah! we keep laugh at ppl and we jus disturb and bang anyone as we make our way thru the crowded area... We raced lah! whahaha so damn funny! Went to check out what buddle Mac is offering.... Then still think daddy fren can get better price... Then now also dunno what is happening... Daddy fren say ship from US... dunno lah! confused....

Headed to ah gong house before going to church... Was happy to see ah gong and ah ma! my ah gong was like so happy to see me lah! hmmm... then my ah gong wanted to eat pizza again so i ordered.... Then my cousin came and i talk to them! so nice lah! look at them all grow up already...

Destiny... God's calling in my life... 

I've sinned yet You love me so much... Your endless love keep flooding me. No matter what i have done you are still there accepting me with open arms... I LOVE YOU MY HEAVENLY FATHER... I know now time are difficult yet you are here to encourage me... I have done some Seriously wrong mistakes... i know what i have done wrong...  BUT YET YOU FORGIVE ME.... Thank you so much Lord Jesus... There is jus no words to express how much i love you....

I now understands that everything is in your hands and that I have given up everything into your hands... it is you who have the ball in your court and it is up to you to make ur decisions and come back to me... cause i am so tired of all this already... i am alright with anything... whatever that make u happy can already...

Tml not going church cause daddy say he need to do something impt... I dunno to acc him or to head down to the IT show and get my  macbook pro! or to do go my ah gong house to chit chat or play mahjong or something with him... 

I feel like eating tang yuan recently!!! i wanna make myself and eat them... i wanna eat so many things this few days... SEAFOOD!!! I WAN SEAFOOD!!! i wan ICE CREAM!!! i wan MEAT!!! AHH okok gotta sleep le hahaha sleepy

ZzZzZzZz....

WHOO! jus woke up not long ago...  Yesterday i stayed at home the whole afternoon to do something for a friend of mine... then at night acc my dad for viewing then fetch my bro back from his party at his fren house. 

Then slept arnd 1 plus and wake up to watch soccer... but i was 7 mins late and man u was up with 1 goal already... continue to watch till abt half time my bro woke up and join me.... watch till finish and watch asernal match... PENALTY sia! whahaha

Then head back to sleep... till now... Maybe going to watch DVD again... or maybe sleep or maybe go restring my guitar.... haha damn slack! 

Orh i was given a task to do by my dad... he give me 3 days to do a research on diabetes.... because i have been eating alot sweets and sweets stuff... I JUS LOVE CANDY lah!!! hahaha always having sweets with me... hahaha

Anyway... there was this story abt true tolerance... A lady, Renee was waiting in the airport for her flight... then because it take hours she decided to buy a book and at the same time a packet of cookie to kill time... then she headed to the VIP area and sat down to read her book....

Then came a man sat next to her reading his magazine. Then she took the cookie that was beside her... to her surprise the man took one too... she was angry but did not really do anything... then she took one again... and he took one cookie everytime she takes one... She was furious but she did not want to cause a scene... then there was one cookie left and she thought to herself... what is he going to do now.... He took it broke it into half and gave her half... She was really pissed think that what a guy who took her cookie and even spilt half and gave her that half...  SO she left and headed to the boarding area...

In the plane later... she look into her bag to take out her eyeglasses... but to her astonishment, her bag of cookie was unopen and untouch inside her bag... She was so embarrassed because she realise that it was the guy who share his cookie with her.... but now she cant even apologized to him or explain things to him....

so the moral of the story is that there are 4 things that cannot be recover. The stone u throw, The word after it's said, the occasion after the loss, the time after it's gone!

Also a true friendship is like the guy... doing anything without expecting anything in return... no matter what is wrong or what happen he jus share the things that he have with her... anyway there is a ppt on that... yeah

Read the story and it was really touching...

Went youtubing jus now and found a girl who can sing quite  nice sia! her love story is like classic! NICE.... Her name is Tiffany JoAllen. Search her... it's nice...

I wanna go K again!!! I miss K-ing already... the month of feb was K crazy.... but march!!! not even one yet... damn! 

In times of trouble, turn your eyes upon Jesus...  For He will do things that you can never imagine and NEVER EVER put God in a box!!! A testimony to share... Abt few years back, we were trying to ask my ah gong to stop smoking.... but he say he can cut down but cannot stop cause he will die if he does... So nothing we can do... we prayed for him... Then one day he was admitted to hospital because his eye got infected... then for 3 days or a week ( i cant rem clearly) he did not smoke because he was in the hospital... Then he went back home and started smoking and he felt dizzy and feel like vomiting... then  he try it again and it's the same... I Believe that it was not by coincidence that he stopped smoking... I believed that it was GOD who intervene... Cause he tried to stop himself but he cant... It is a miracle and I PRAISE GOD FOR THAT!!!! YIPEE!!!! ONE THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET....

60 DOLLARS CD AND TAKA HONEY FOR POPULAR SINGERS!!! haha It is jus so funny! 

Well went to vocals lesson today!  It was really fun! More fun then the first lesson i must say! Why??? Maybe because the tension of the first lesson and not know what to expect is all over... Then Maybe there is this new student in class!!! she is a lady!!! BUT SHE IS quite an elderly... can be my granny... She ask stupid question lah! so funny! Her name is Judy!

Jus before our singing pract...

Judy: I have 2 voice, which one do i use ar???

Geraldine: Jus try to use one first, and work on that...

Judy: The normal one ar??? Is it this one???

Talking abt the recorder...

Judy: My recorder this big leh!!! can ar???

Geraldine: As long as can record and hear can already...

After lesson...

Judy: wha I bought a $60 cd to learn this leh...

US : orh...

Judy: there is this Honey dunno what name that singer use very good one....

Me: Honey lemon???

Judy: NO LAH!!! NOT HONEY LEMON HAHAHA... some honey dunno what name taka got sell! the basement there...

Me: orh...

She then keep talking and talking till i say i gtg.. bye!! whahaha There are many more incident also lah... so so funny... i practically laugh throughout the lesson.. 

The tuck ur ass exercise... Then we like keep disturb one another... so so funny 

ORH one more incident Judy even suggest that we have a buddy system to call each other to practice lah! whahaha like ORH over the phone??? LOL!!! I disturb caleb to pair up with her... hahaha!!! super funny! or JOSHUA who is another guy also very funny...

Our class has 6 ppl Chris( my bro) Caleb, me , alexandra, judy, joshua... the teacher is geraldine... SO SO FUN!!! 

Then went to donuts factory bought a box of 12 then head to ah ma house... Bought subway for dinner. then slack at ah ma house! disturb ah ma and talk to ah gong abit and then went home.... NOw my ah gong say see first maybe he will go to the doc! hurray!!!  Will be praying every night for him! 

HAHA gonna watch DVD!! my daddy borrow for my er gu the other day! so many DVD LAH!! New one also have! whoo i am chionging them! 

SEE YA!!! 

People gets offended really easy! I must say! And ppl who offended people may not know anything at all!!!

I was waiting for the lift and i was standing on the side of the door then came this freaking fat lady!!!! She was taking a luaggage and she was like " Excuse me!!!" with the action tone!!! then i was like freaking pissed!!! i said loudly! i wasnt in the wrong! and there is so much space in the front and fat ppl jus need to take the short cut.... cant even jus was straight!!!

This is an example how ppl get offended! or rather me... Till now i jus dont understand why she had to say that cause i am not block directly at the door at all!!!!

NAH! nvm! today my brother got e learning day so no school! means me gotta stay home! damn! i wanted to go out to get a breather but well!!! nvm!!! tml there is vocals class again! The song damn damn low can! wha lao cannot sing lah! nvm!!!

What to do! played guitar for hours today! whahaha cause really nothing to do! so played FIFA 09 also!

then now i wanna go out and watch movie lor... ahh!! then dunno my bro wanna go ornot!! so sick of home!

Keep thinking if only..... if ony that... the life will be wonderful! but the fact is that thru difficult time will we grow!!! Starting to miss those times when school is jus so fuN! I keep pestering daddy to call uncle eddy!!! ahh!!! cause i wan my MAC!!! damn! FASTER!!! so i can get rid of this acer! then i can start saving money again for my guitar... i wanna get a Gretsch electric guitar so i can get rid my Stagg and get also a taylor acoustic guitar!!! so time to save up and have more "keching" $$$$

Anyway i wan many many things! but all of them are so hard to fulfilled! ahH!! i wanna go shopping agaiN! starting to have the shopping mood again! time to shop!!! My dad said abt getting a karaoke machine!!! yesterday and i totally agree!!! Then i can invite NIC and G over to train one our voice! whahaha

Lincoln wanna me org a k box outing? whahaha but who to call??? dunno lah! see if he really wan then say lor...

It was great going to church! Cause i really needed somethings from God!  And i got it! whoo!!! so am in a high mood now... 

yesterday went home to watch soccer and daddy made burger! not bad quite nice! me lazy to  cook cause whoever  cook have to wash also... so i love cooking but i hate washing! but somehow i still help out cooking =P whahaha okok  then watch soccer and man u won again! so slept really late and this morning wake up at 9.45 then head to church!

Then after church came home and sleep! i was really tired! and daddy went out to worK and my bro was doing his e learning stuff... Then my dad came back and said he close the deal is free so we say wanna go cycling but out seats kena stolen so no choice we decide to play soccer instead. So we pack our boots and all and headed to the big patch of field near innova jc and play! damn fun play like mad! Jus 3 of us! kicking and passing and all...then run few rounds the field! whahaha then went to eat dinner at 888 then go back home wash up and then acc my daddy to get some doc then headed to mr teh tarik for supper! then came back watch the matrix and now here blogging! whahaha okok  going to sleep soon.. >,<

As long as you are ok and happy i'm fine with anything...

Jesus

Others 

You

Sadly you came last.... So i am going to put Jesus first, then Others then You!!! who is me lah!

BUTBUTBUTBUT!!! i am still human i got my weakness... so i still fail sometimes... hehe... so do not judge eh... hahaha

Next week means the HL got his holiday and i am going to start working in sentosa... i think not going to get my schedule  too tight so can go malaysia for a couple of days...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:


You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.


Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


Whoo quite true eh! whahaha http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Ok called ah gong on the way there and he dont wanna eat beef noodle already so me and daddy went to fetch my bro from school and went to my ah gong house... We sat there for abt 3 hours or so then decided to go giant to get some stuff! So we went to the tamp giant and then we realise that the promotion we wanted was at sembawang instead. So we went there... 

Bought quite a no of things lah! so funny! i jus like going supermarkets to buy things to cook! whahaha today bought duck gizzards! whahaha then bought  6 chicken!!! damn funny lah! whahaha then buy some other stuff and go back then me and my bro start washing the gizzard! whahaha then after like 1 hour it is all over! waited for daddy to come back to cook! whoolala!

now going to eat already! took some pic! will post them later!!!

WHoo! jus wake up! wha damn tired lah! whahaha dint stay at ah gong house yesterday daddy came to pick me up... we went to car showroom and see car! wha!!! damn nice lah the new model! when i got the money i will surely buy that car lah! HONDA ODYSSEY 2009!!! Wha arnd 1oo k leh! hmmm wha think in my lifetime i wanna own that car! it damn nice i like cause i bring me good memories of my dad driving that car up to penang and it is very stable and comfortable...

Then came back home! so i was like watching vid on youtube and learn to play the song " All who are thirsty" damn nice! me and my bro play the song at home and he ended up in tears... hmmm well then we went supper at the teh tarik stall then i came back and watch some stuff on youtube till arnd 4... haha then now super shag... going to head off to my ah gong place again to bring himto eat beef noodle today because yesterday i was late... 

Anyway see  ya!!!

Rem all things happen for a purpose... Continue to be strong... I'm sorry i cant help much...

Well jus woke up not long ago... going to go ah gong house and most likely i am going to stay there tonight... Well kind of miss school... Anyway my baby cousin is coming back soon already... I think that now my room is so messy again! whahaha so many things arnd! damn! maybe next week i will go shopping for some furniture to put my stuff at IKEA or something... 

Think my dad is too stressed out lah! so he stressed... me and my bro also stressed... what to do... hope my bro can get his passport so during the march holi's we'll be able to go penang or desaru or somewhere where we can jus relax for a couple of days cause i really need it... so is my dad... Machap is a stop not to be missed because there is the ICE CREAM!!! damn power lah! 

Everything may crumble and fall but look to God for He will never fail you...  

Ok here i am again! Damn sian now! Nothing to do! freaking boring here in woodlands! i think i will be going back to TPY to stay with my ah gong for some time spend time talking to him! i now really feeling down cause i am afraid of losing my loves ones again... after losing someone so closed to me it seems that i am losing another person who is also really closed to me.... Troubles doesnt come singly i dunno why but this is what my ah gong told me...

I know that we still have to move on but why does this have to happen! The thought of it scares me alot... cause i will have alot responsibility lah... My da gu who is also my godma i have to look after her... argh! i dunno lah! i am damn stress already! jus feel like crying again... crying is the cleansing for the soul??? 

Anyone who i can count on in this times of trouble??? Anyone whom i am comfortable to talk to??? Anyone whom i can hug to sleep knowing you will always be there??? Is there anyone???

WTF!!! DAmn pissed! what feel good feeling!! NB you stressed then scold me! think what! halo! i also never do anything wrong! Singing got wrong ar! play guitar also got wrong! Thought u all hungry what so i buy one chicken also got problem! say i feel good buying the chicken! WTF!!! I use my own money buy for u all also make so  much noise! NB buy thought u all can eat first got something else to eat rather then the plain porridge then u come and KPKB now! BLOODY HELL!!! FELL GOOD!!! everytime say things also contradict one! what is this!!! Say everything i also follow ppl! then look at my life say i never this never that! how abt urs??? damn holy lah hor!!! so spiritual lah! JUs look at urself lah! sometime u damn scarastic i also never say anything what! You only focus on ppl's problem lah! everything ppl do also bad one lah! you are perfect lah!! you're the best lah! Damn pissed! you cannot wake up then the whole plan have to change my fault meh! It's u what! 

DONT EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ME ALREADY!!! @(U#(*@#

Whoo!!! went vocals class today! it was fun lah! whahaha so funny lah we were laughing at ppl! whahaha so so funnY! my bro was like quite ok lah! not so bad! whahaha then we practise breathing and posture and all! it was great lah! haha this 2 days  have been to ah gong house to talk to him and look after him! He is weak and everytime i left the house we almost ended up in tears.... Then he today ask me abt you... I told him and he was like abit angry with me... telling me who good you are... well hmmm guess it's ur decision.. there is nothing i can do also... haiZ anyway tml maybe me and ah gong going out! Me alone handle him abt hard ar... he cant walk steady also... ahh!!

I miss you so much!!! Though now i get to see you lesser already but i really misses you alot and am till really concern for you! One day you may even forget who i am and treat me like a total stranger but i am not going to care abt the future but as of now this is what it is... I love you as much as before. Due to the circumstances now i think that it is good to be this way also! dont wanna see you suffer in this state... well life have to go on no matter what.... i'll be stronger... there are so many things i wanna talk to you but it jus seems so hard to open my mouth to talk... i really wanna tell you how much i love you and wish that you could jus hear me out but i dont wan you to get all angry and worry abt everything... i may show you that i am enjoying my life is because i dont wan you to worry abt me! Deep inside no one will know how i feel! trust me... smiles can be fake or real u dont even know...

Yesterday went to er gu house to help gu zhang to do some admin stuff for his company... Then played CS with the kids! all 3 lappy all playing cs... Me my bro and shawn boy. Zi yan also want to play lah! whahaha then after that we went to punggol to have dinner! er gu treated us!!! wha they order alot lor... left the chicken cannot finish! the crab was damn nice lah! After that went to CWP to get my bro itouch screen protector and then head home to watch soccer!

Then this morning! I woke up damn early to come to my ah ma house to acc my ah gong and talk to him and help him out! He is really weak i must say... Then my xiao gu came and say i look damn FAT!!! OMG think it is the supper that is killing me now and all the ice cream and all! damn!!! 2 thinks that will make me fat! HOLIDAY! and STRESSED!!! this is the 2 main cause! when i am stress i wont eat at first and later i eat alot and sleep alot!!! then holiday and staying at home means more food and all! and always go out hunt for food! damn!! Need to lose some weights liao!

Gonna start up the business in like 2 weeks time! wonder how am i going to hit the qouta lah! wha lao! hmmm and with the team i have like still not enough leh! need to get more ppl lah! then when i have quite a good salary then am able to fund myself expenses...

And i realise something new! when i learn driving! my dad say will buy a NEW car when i pass! wha laO! damn happy lah! though now we like broke till damn jialat but he say will buy NEw car sia!!! i told him say 2nd hand can liao or 3rd hand i also dont mind jus get a proper car not some lao pok car can already i dont mind driving his present car also lor! though it is abit lan.... haha

Anyway $$$ have been quite an issues nowadays already 300 to survive for 2 months! wha! damn like hard sia! Hmmm FREAKING hard...it is like one days 5 dollars... wha damn impossible lah! NVM!!! i got my ways of getting money! ( the right way! OF COS)

OK there is nothing much going on this few days but stay at home and play mahjong! like for hours and played for last night 11 to now! then think not going church already lah! Dunno daddy still wanna go church ornot! I kinda miss church! Church yesterday was talking abt ED and like ok... ED ED!!! sian! somemore like so fast hard to listen to the talk... I miss going overseas cause like so long never go liao! and till june or august or sep then i'll be going away! but it is going to be far far away! Africa is a nice place lor... Wha!!! so many nice places to go to eH! hahaha after seeing nic post i wanna get married in BALI lah! so nice lah! the chapel so nice! whahaha 

 

This question was ask jus now...

If i have never ending money what will i do....

i will buy a mansion on top of a cliff facing the open sea and stay there.... i will set up an orphanage beside my house and a church... Then will get married and grow old and serve God there till i die!!! In my mansion there will be a recording studio... with guitars, drum sets, grand piano, all the music instrument. then i will have a snooker and a pool room. a table tennis area, a k box a movie area! many bed rooms and many toilets and a big big dinning room and a big living room! my master bed room will be very grand and romantic! must have a walk in wardrobe.  A high tech security system... a garden... a yard... wha i wan alot things and let my wife decide what she wan too!!! and a play area for the kids. I will have a BMW 7 series car, a family car like honda odasis and a car for my wife( see what she likes) and a caravan!!! for traveling to malaysia.. hahaha it is gonna be a dream! but she how my wife will wanna deco the house! i will ask my family to stay with me!!! WHOO!!! whahaha okok i damn tired now! and really dreaming already! goona go sleep!

 GOOD NIGHT/ GOOD MORNING!!!