Well jus woke up not long ago... going to go ah gong house and most likely i am going to stay there tonight... Well kind of miss school... Anyway my baby cousin is coming back soon already... I think that now my room is so messy again! whahaha so many things arnd! damn! maybe next week i will go shopping for some furniture to put my stuff at IKEA or something... 

Think my dad is too stressed out lah! so he stressed... me and my bro also stressed... what to do... hope my bro can get his passport so during the march holi's we'll be able to go penang or desaru or somewhere where we can jus relax for a couple of days cause i really need it... so is my dad... Machap is a stop not to be missed because there is the ICE CREAM!!! damn power lah! 

Everything may crumble and fall but look to God for He will never fail you...  

Ok here i am again! Damn sian now! Nothing to do! freaking boring here in woodlands! i think i will be going back to TPY to stay with my ah gong for some time spend time talking to him! i now really feeling down cause i am afraid of losing my loves ones again... after losing someone so closed to me it seems that i am losing another person who is also really closed to me.... Troubles doesnt come singly i dunno why but this is what my ah gong told me...

I know that we still have to move on but why does this have to happen! The thought of it scares me alot... cause i will have alot responsibility lah... My da gu who is also my godma i have to look after her... argh! i dunno lah! i am damn stress already! jus feel like crying again... crying is the cleansing for the soul??? 

Anyone who i can count on in this times of trouble??? Anyone whom i am comfortable to talk to??? Anyone whom i can hug to sleep knowing you will always be there??? Is there anyone???

WTF!!! DAmn pissed! what feel good feeling!! NB you stressed then scold me! think what! halo! i also never do anything wrong! Singing got wrong ar! play guitar also got wrong! Thought u all hungry what so i buy one chicken also got problem! say i feel good buying the chicken! WTF!!! I use my own money buy for u all also make so  much noise! NB buy thought u all can eat first got something else to eat rather then the plain porridge then u come and KPKB now! BLOODY HELL!!! FELL GOOD!!! everytime say things also contradict one! what is this!!! Say everything i also follow ppl! then look at my life say i never this never that! how abt urs??? damn holy lah hor!!! so spiritual lah! JUs look at urself lah! sometime u damn scarastic i also never say anything what! You only focus on ppl's problem lah! everything ppl do also bad one lah! you are perfect lah!! you're the best lah! Damn pissed! you cannot wake up then the whole plan have to change my fault meh! It's u what! 

DONT EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ME ALREADY!!! @(U#(*@#

Whoo!!! went vocals class today! it was fun lah! whahaha so funny lah we were laughing at ppl! whahaha so so funnY! my bro was like quite ok lah! not so bad! whahaha then we practise breathing and posture and all! it was great lah! haha this 2 days  have been to ah gong house to talk to him and look after him! He is weak and everytime i left the house we almost ended up in tears.... Then he today ask me abt you... I told him and he was like abit angry with me... telling me who good you are... well hmmm guess it's ur decision.. there is nothing i can do also... haiZ anyway tml maybe me and ah gong going out! Me alone handle him abt hard ar... he cant walk steady also... ahh!!

I miss you so much!!! Though now i get to see you lesser already but i really misses you alot and am till really concern for you! One day you may even forget who i am and treat me like a total stranger but i am not going to care abt the future but as of now this is what it is... I love you as much as before. Due to the circumstances now i think that it is good to be this way also! dont wanna see you suffer in this state... well life have to go on no matter what.... i'll be stronger... there are so many things i wanna talk to you but it jus seems so hard to open my mouth to talk... i really wanna tell you how much i love you and wish that you could jus hear me out but i dont wan you to get all angry and worry abt everything... i may show you that i am enjoying my life is because i dont wan you to worry abt me! Deep inside no one will know how i feel! trust me... smiles can be fake or real u dont even know...

Yesterday went to er gu house to help gu zhang to do some admin stuff for his company... Then played CS with the kids! all 3 lappy all playing cs... Me my bro and shawn boy. Zi yan also want to play lah! whahaha then after that we went to punggol to have dinner! er gu treated us!!! wha they order alot lor... left the chicken cannot finish! the crab was damn nice lah! After that went to CWP to get my bro itouch screen protector and then head home to watch soccer!

Then this morning! I woke up damn early to come to my ah ma house to acc my ah gong and talk to him and help him out! He is really weak i must say... Then my xiao gu came and say i look damn FAT!!! OMG think it is the supper that is killing me now and all the ice cream and all! damn!!! 2 thinks that will make me fat! HOLIDAY! and STRESSED!!! this is the 2 main cause! when i am stress i wont eat at first and later i eat alot and sleep alot!!! then holiday and staying at home means more food and all! and always go out hunt for food! damn!! Need to lose some weights liao!

Gonna start up the business in like 2 weeks time! wonder how am i going to hit the qouta lah! wha lao! hmmm and with the team i have like still not enough leh! need to get more ppl lah! then when i have quite a good salary then am able to fund myself expenses...

And i realise something new! when i learn driving! my dad say will buy a NEW car when i pass! wha laO! damn happy lah! though now we like broke till damn jialat but he say will buy NEw car sia!!! i told him say 2nd hand can liao or 3rd hand i also dont mind jus get a proper car not some lao pok car can already i dont mind driving his present car also lor! though it is abit lan.... haha

Anyway $$$ have been quite an issues nowadays already 300 to survive for 2 months! wha! damn like hard sia! Hmmm FREAKING hard...it is like one days 5 dollars... wha damn impossible lah! NVM!!! i got my ways of getting money! ( the right way! OF COS)

OK there is nothing much going on this few days but stay at home and play mahjong! like for hours and played for last night 11 to now! then think not going church already lah! Dunno daddy still wanna go church ornot! I kinda miss church! Church yesterday was talking abt ED and like ok... ED ED!!! sian! somemore like so fast hard to listen to the talk... I miss going overseas cause like so long never go liao! and till june or august or sep then i'll be going away! but it is going to be far far away! Africa is a nice place lor... Wha!!! so many nice places to go to eH! hahaha after seeing nic post i wanna get married in BALI lah! so nice lah! the chapel so nice! whahaha 

 

This question was ask jus now...

If i have never ending money what will i do....

i will buy a mansion on top of a cliff facing the open sea and stay there.... i will set up an orphanage beside my house and a church... Then will get married and grow old and serve God there till i die!!! In my mansion there will be a recording studio... with guitars, drum sets, grand piano, all the music instrument. then i will have a snooker and a pool room. a table tennis area, a k box a movie area! many bed rooms and many toilets and a big big dinning room and a big living room! my master bed room will be very grand and romantic! must have a walk in wardrobe.  A high tech security system... a garden... a yard... wha i wan alot things and let my wife decide what she wan too!!! and a play area for the kids. I will have a BMW 7 series car, a family car like honda odasis and a car for my wife( see what she likes) and a caravan!!! for traveling to malaysia.. hahaha it is gonna be a dream! but she how my wife will wanna deco the house! i will ask my family to stay with me!!! WHOO!!! whahaha okok i damn tired now! and really dreaming already! goona go sleep!

 GOOD NIGHT/ GOOD MORNING!!!