Today going to bring my ah ma to the hospital for check up! With daddy, heliang and da gu! then will be going out with daddy and didi! most likely we will go to the beach i think or if not maybe other place like discovery center to shoot gunS!!! ahh!!! yeah

Something i was thinking the whole day liao! perhaps bad things happen is not because of the people around me! perhaps it is me! I am the one that cause so much trouble??? Could that be the case??? hmmm maybe lor! Wha best lah!

AHH!!!! sian...

Boring christmas!!!

Wha sian! damn suay lor wanna go buy thing the shop close! sian! wha damn suay! things isnt going well! hmmm well think i am running out on luck! hmmm This year christmas is jus like a normal day for me! Nothing special! really no thing can make me happy sia! i maybe happy on the outside smiling and all but on the inside i will surely be not! NOW ANOTHER ROUND OF NAGGING WHEN I AM TYPING THIS POST! same thing money money money.... haiZ

Hope that someone can jus come up to me and give me the gift of my life!!! den i will go from =( to =..) but well i dont think that will happen! hmmm yup ah it is jus a wish! though! my christmas wish! is jus so simple! A gift of my life! ahh! wha no one to go out with! everyone so busy preparing christmas and all but me??? rotting dying of sianess! wha! onli little bahamut with me! hmmm

Damn irritated today! Morning wake up already in a bad mood! What is wrong with everything!!! so many things like all sucks man now! Early morning wake up liao! then still got to stand all those crap! den like a servant like that! WHAT THE HELL! i am like a servant eh! Told u no need bring the dunno what u dont believe! u say easy what everything also i carry one! U KNOW HOW PAIN MY LEG IS WHEN I WALK ORNOT!!!! somemore have to support u! somemore have to take ur that freaking pump! somemore got all the medcine and everything!!! Then why u keep talking bad things abt my dad! and why are u always against christianity!!!! What forgive and forget! It is not really a christian thing what! then u say it is! everything also say it is CHRISTIAN! WHAT IS WRONG WITH BEING A CHRISTIAN! Why is there always a third party comdemning christianity! CANT U JUS RESPECT MY RELIGION LIKE HOW I RESPECT YOURS!!! I ALSO NEVER SAY UR BUDDHA OR WHATEVER WHAT!

GOD WHY IS THIS HAPPENING??? WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THRU THIS FREAKING LECTURES AND TALKS EVERYTIME??? GOT PROBLEM WITH DADDY OR WHAT EVERYTHING ALSO NOT HAPPY DEN SAY MY DADDY BAD!!!! U DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH HE GOES THRU AND ALWAYS SAY HE BAD!!! IF HE WOULDNT CARE HE WONT EVEN SAY ALL THIS TO U AND TELL U ANYTHING PLS!!!! AFTER ALL THAT HAS HAPPEN, IF IT WAS U HOW WILL U HAVE REACTED???

I jus hate it when i do not do anything wrong and u nag at me abt this abt that! i really cannot take it lor! and u know how loud your voice ornot!!! Everything also wan me do for u! I am having holi leh! i stayed here jus to make sure everything is ok! then this is what i get! NON STOP NAGGING THE WHOLE DAY! I FREAKING HAVE ENOUGH ALREADY LOR!!!!

This is jus not my day! Y is this happening! everything bad seems to happen to me now! i am really that suay sia! losing everything now! LOVE, JOY, PEACE!!!! WHERE ARE U!!!!! argh!!!

ANOTHER PROBLEM! I stay home and listen to music and that song happen to touch me and relate to me so i played it over and over again but u say whole day only know how to listen to same song! den everything i do also got comment! i didnt do anything wrong what!!!

God!!! What to do now!!! everything seems so bad! i jus need prayer and jus someone who can relate to me to talk to me! i jus need someone who will be there to encourage me to be with me in this times! Jus to tell me how much HE loves me!! How much he cares!!! Cause i am in a dark dark tunnel and i cant seems to find the light! i cant see what is ahead! whenever i have a glimsp of hope it jus fell into so much deeper with things and people around! i really dunno what is happen!

I tried my best to cheer myself up be happy... Thinking positive but it is not working so many things is happening and i am jus so stressed out! i am like a rubberband being stretched to the max! jus another 1mm more and i will snap! HELP!!!! SOS!!!!

Well!!! It is a new looks and a new style! wow! Damn sadded lah! Singapore lose to Vietnam! BASKET!!! I was in the stadium with daddy and Singapore LOSE!!! OMG!!! I was almost in tears as singapore lose to VIETNAM! Singapore played very well and has all the chances but the shots was too lousy! Seriously.... All vietnam has was a chance and they took and singapore went 1 goal down! then few mins was left on the clock and the final whistle! many fans stood still and Shout "Butoh!" When they exit the stadium...

After that we went to our facourite places around Elim church there to have our supper! i had prata... 1 egg 1 kosong.. and order Kambing soup... then went home sleep liao....

Today early morning went to settle some stuff and was very pissed with somethings... cause it was total unrespectful for a person to be like this! His attitude totally sucks! and so what I am younger!!! That doesnt mean u can treat me this way! Scare is it! See me then say got to go!!!! WTH!!! WHAT CAN U DO!!! NOTHING RIGHT??? SO JUS PLS STOP COMING AND POSION PPL CAN!!! ESP THOSE FOLKS ARE OLD LIAO! COME AGAIN AND I SWEAR I WONT BE NICE TO U!!!! Stop acting lah! It is so obvious right! I saw u earlier and i called u and u jus ar! Then when my ah gong arnd u pretend to say hi long time no see! and how are u!

Haix lucky manage to talk to ah gong abt it and it was ok!!! Then I jus slack at home and talk to BONG on the phone for abt 2 hours! We jus talk and talk lor! Starting from class outing in 31 dec to where to eat to kbox to memories to wang lee hom and finally to our education and to reflection! Well i must say that Bong is a really nice guy who is helpful and i am blessed to have him as a FRIEND!!! CONSIDER MY BEST FRIEND... But sadly he studies in aus and can seldom see him liao! But hope u come back often ok??? ESP WHEN THERE IS WANG LEE HOM CONCERT!!! I DONT WANNA GO ALONE!!! WHAHAHA the Highness!!! Ya lor

Then i got nothing to do so listen to music and slowly doze off... ZzZz Well then after that was dinner time! so jus ate a couple sticks of satay and that was it! nothing else! No appetite lately lor! Also dunno what is happening! but at least can slim down!

Oh i am limping now! whahaha cause i dunno what happen and i sprain my leg!!! ya lor so i walk with a limp! whahaha

Orh i wanna introduce my guitar!!! This is "little Bahamut!" The name of my guitar... yeah! wha this guitar has acc me for abt 10 months now. Well my dad bought it for me on my birthday this yeaR!!! Whenever i am sad or whenever i am down Little bahamut will be with me... i will play simple song and it always never fail to touch my heart! i love little Bahamut!

*Little Bahamut*

Tml going to bring my ah gong to polyclinic to see the doc lor yup then most likely will go to TPY central to eat beef noodles. Then after that I will be free! Want to go shopping lor! Yup but no one to acc me! hmmm maybe i should go on my own lor! yeah! Then now also no KBOX BUDDY!!! yeah... then wed going to bring ah ma to hospital in the morning then after that i am free again! ya lor!!! then thurs is christmas liao! wha best Really no festive mood! hmmm It seems like christmas in jus a normal day! hahaha so that is abt it! i maybe going thailand alone or with my bro to visit my cousins lor! yeah my dad say he got free ticks i think or what.. so i can go there if i wan! yeah! but i still dunno yet!!!! okok lor that's abt it!!! CHEERS!!!