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Sometimes I just wonder...

Sometimes Life can be full of surprises, It can be full of joy and laughter or it can also be full with sadness and sorrows.

Like what my dad always says, look on the both side of it. Is it good being like this? Or is it good being that? Nowadays, I find that I am always short on fuse. The simple things could make me blow up! I feel that I am no longer the person i used to be.

Sometimes when I am out, I will put on a mask. Deep down inside, no one knows what run through my mind, what I am truly feeling inside. Till I get home, I will remove my mask and face my true self. Music is my best friend. I communicate through songs and lyrics. It shows what I am feeling inside.

Saw this that somethings that i wrote some time ago. It is so true....

Sometimes life is jus like an upwards hill everythings seem to be going fine and good....

Sometimes life will be at the darkest valley where everythings seems to go wrong...

Sometimes i am very happy and feel that i am on the top of the world...

Sometimes i jus feel like giving up everything...

Sometimes love is so strong arnd me... Everyone loves me and i jus feel so blessed...

Sometimes love is so far away... Everyone isnt there anymore...

Sometimes i am so high!!! so so crazy...

Sometimes i am just so quiet....

Sometimes i jus feel so lost....

Sometimes i am jus so motivated to do things...

Sometimes i am in a mood for everything....

Sometimes everything jus seems so meaningless to me...

Sometimes i feel that tgt we can make a difference...

Sometimes i jus feel that the difference is the cause of the problem...

Sometimes i jus feel that there is so many friends arnd me...

Sometimes i feel that i am all alone...

Sometimes i jus feel that i am so tall and big...

sometimes i jus feel so small and tiny...

Sometimes i jus feel like hugging your teddy bear and cry

Sometimes i jus laugh out loud...

Sometimes i sing happy songs...

Sometimes i sing sad songs...

Well sometimes i look at myself and feel that i am a blessed boy...

Sometimes i look at myself and wonder if everything was fake...

Sometime i wish that the things i did could be rewind...

oh Well Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have know you...

Had a relaxing day today. Finally do something to ease my mind and then makes me wonder about you.... A song that has been my heart cry for quite some time but finally got a song to express my heart...

War

I would march acroos the desert to defeat my enemy

And I would lie here in the trenches with your picture next to me

And when I told you it's forever, then it's how its gonna be

Don't, Won't let him just take the place of me (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?

Does he really love you, like I love you, How can he compete?

If he makes me fight for you, die for you, would he do the same?

This is turning into way more than a game...

Now it feels like soldier in a war and none of us are backing down

And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He don't wanna leave and I don't fight this kind of war

You know he's not the man you this he is;

he's hiding all his flaws

so tell me what's the point of fighting?

Because we'll all end up with scars

But girl if that's what I misg go through, then I'm not prepared to lose

Cause I've already bled so much for you (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?

Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?

If he makes me fight for you, I die for you, would he do the same?

Baby this is turning into way more than a game...

Baby cause we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I dont wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He dont't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war (No, No...)

Getting kind of sick of this battle

Wish I could take it back to when I had you

I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you

It's getting hard to convince you

After all the shit that we've been through

What, would you let all this happen?

You gotta try to make it stop

It's already going too far..

Girl we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down

And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I dont wanna go

And I know just how this battle goes

He don't wanna and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go

And I know jus how this battle goes

He don't wanna leave and I dont wanna fight this kind of war...

Prawning was awesome... Caught quite a number of prawns... Next time shld bring more ppl along... The more the merrier...

WHOO!!!! PC show 2010 is an awesome show man! TOTALLY AWESOME! I kinda miss everything abt it now...

Breakfast with Jon Ginger Rosette and Yixuan and company! Totally hilarious lah! Getting high in the morning with This is why I'm hot and yue liang tai biao wo de xin! hahahaha Bouncing all the way! hahaha. Chionging for sales working tgt like one big family. Enjoying awesome dinner and awesome doughnut party! Totally awesome to the max!

Many photos were taken... Check out FB! I am so excited for the july show! ARGH!!!!

REGRETTED!!!! I regretted!!! I should gone for all the CAMPS when i am in year 1.... PFFT!!! If only i could turn back time. Actually, whenever i complain and then after that i look back it has always been so fun lah! LAST YEAR ALREADY!!!! CHIONG ALL CAMPS ALL ACTIVITIES!!!!!

Now looking back at cypher camp... though was rather quiet but it was fun... playing table tennis and basketball... then FOP was different! AWESOME!!! then sport camp... Soccer was great frisbee as well as the company... what is next? hahaha

I have no time already NO TIME!!!! I going to be so screwed when school reopen i swear!!! SURE DIE ONE!!!!

Stay at home the whole day... Slept alot... Abit the sian... Watching drama.

Daddy going to admit himself to the hospital tonight, cause he pass urine got blood... so have to go admit to the hospital...

Tml there will be training in the morning till afternoon, then maybe i will go to the hospital or something at night... Oh well, my mind has been so disturbed i dont understand why... I jus need a break away from you perhaps... Need to do things to keep me preoccupy if not i will sure think of u one... ARGH what is this man!

Woke up today and still feeling really tired... went to school to do FYP but it wasnt productive though... hahaha but well...

Manage to catch up with syasya jus now... and then 5 more days of relax or freedom before i entangle myself with work for 4 days... PC show... My motive is to earn as much and practice what i learn in Sales Management module and hopefully it works... hahaha

Things that meant to be joke in the first place became true. I wonder why myself at times... but i jus cant seems to find the answer. I think only time will tell but oh well till then, I jus hope things will be smoothe sailing...